eeeethemole: July 2006

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Students' sketchpad - Pokemaid

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Sweet child of mine

I've dissed the boy many times before.
I thought he was only sent here to torment me.
Now I miss him dearly.
He lives in the room next to mine.
But I haven't seen him for 3 days.
The empowering guilt awaits its trigger for eruption.
Or rather, it's already erupted.
And it hasn't stopped.
I love the boy to death.
He's at a stage where a child requires the most tender of care.
They want to feel protected.
They want to know everybody cares.
They want be in complete comfort.
They want to feel loved.
And I don't think I'm doing my job as a sister.
School's starting to rock my world leaving me no time for home affairs.

But I think today I saw Mirzan in his purest form... ever.
He entered my room and sat on the bed.
I pretended to ignore him.
My instinct told me he's gonna come running to me, clamber up on my lap, and start banging away on the keyboards.
But he didnt.
He didn't even smile or try to piss me off.
5 mins passed... 10 mins...
He was still sitting in the same position on the bed, silent and looking around the room as if he's never been in here before.
Then his eyes caught mine.
They looked blank but it felt like an accusing glare.

Where have you been??

But underneath all that possible hatred, I saw something that made my heart melt.

I miss you, kakak.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

Rachel hermione

So much for a 24 hour marathon.
But the experience was priceless.
My muscles are aching like shit now.

After school we went for our shift.
My job was to just stand by the stage and help carry some equipments they may need on stage namely chairs.
Coz there were a lot of bands and chinese orchestra etc.
Sounds boring but I had good fun.
Just watching how Jus or whatsisname work was quite a fresh breath of air for me.
He had to ensure what needs to get onstage gets there quickly, what’s not needed gets off, and smooth inflow outflow of performers.
It was awesome how they could organize themselves despite some last minute changes and the heavy traffic.

I realized how vulgar backstage people can be.
Why the fucking lights so bright?! It’s so hot.
Are your people controlling the lights... ?
I think so...

After our shift we went to watch EMP spin.
I loved the feel and everything.
The music was crazy awesome, the glow sticks were great.
But I was awfully tired I could sleep anywhere.

Come morning I dunno how it became our job but we had to help out while some of them were missing.
I only had to help ensure the schools arrived on time for the inter-school rap.
Which went quite horribly coz 2 of the schools canceled out and 1 wussed out.
They decided not to go on right before they were supposed to go onstage.

Overall it was an awesome experience.
Something to learn for the future.

Booyah I haven’t do rj.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Oh jolly

It's been a busy week...
We finally finished our animation.
And we've got Racial Harmony toms toms.
Not just pretty dancing girls in ethnic costumes.
A 24-hour marathon with bands, dance, music mix, drama, bhangrarobics!
Yaiy, still trying to get my hands on those glow sticks so we can rave like ravens!

Hmm, I got a 'nag'ative from my dad tho.
He says I should stop voluntary work for once.
Coz I'm under 21.
I was harh?! it is a school thingieee.
He doesn't like the idea of me staying over.

Oh my goodness, our Zither production ytd was... weird.
We only did sound check like 5 min before their performance.
But I think the sound check was the best. Lol.
After one of the girls gave the cue, with one huge stroke they went "kRIYAWNGGGG!"
Phwoar, electrifying.
I'm beginning to accept guzheng as another wonderful contribution to art.

Hmm, things to do for Natz in case she forgets:
// Rid laptop of junkies
// Pay Limiin $25 for ondotzero (which I regrettably signed up for coz I didn't go)
// Our next CAP event - repub rhapso (don't forget to send e-mail to advisor!)
// Study for UT (which I've never done but should start coz I'm getting loadsa Cs)

I vant to get new glasesssss.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

And we all fall down

Whoa, what a tiring day.
Doing a project up on the roof with the sun burning at 16999 kelvin.
The vitamin d's good but it just drains you.
I counted at least 4 times when I accidentally bumped my head against the window while sleeping in the bus.

Been terribly lethargic these days.
I've never submitted late RJs 3 days in a row.
Gotta remember to do RJs in sch so I can go back and waffle in peace.

Darn, I got my best record of 20 passengers in crazy taxi.
But print screened so many times eventually I only managed to get the credits part where they were showing random images.
Slengeh, slengeh nat.

Even though I've been awfully tired these days, I find myself less worried.
The past few weeks I kept waking up with such terrible headaches coz my brain had loads to think about through the night.
I kept going to sleep with so much worry.
When I woke up, I'd think it was just a dream.
Only to realise 10 seconds later that it was a dreaded reality.

I'm exhausted.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

I say you don't know, you say you don't know. I say you don't know, you say you don't know. I say... you don't know!

This week's been one hellofa shitloader.
But yah, I gotta write down the stuff I'm scheduled to do for my own reference.
And for all you shenanigans who think STA's about sitting back and shaking leg till your ding ding dongs fall off.

\ DMA

Today we finally finished painting our backdrop, the Queen, fortune teller, and guard.
Getting ready for our stop-motion animation next week.
Let's hope everything turns out fine rather than spastic.

\ CAP

Hmm, this is actually interesting for me 'coz I've never been really involved in a CCA before.
I didn't have a solid one back in primary school.
One year I'd be in choir, then the next I'd be in athletics, then netball, then back to choir.
High school, I was in basketball for only a year then I quit.
So Campus Arts Productionis is one of my first.

But anyway yah, we got a zither performance for next week.
I'm hoping for everything to turn out well.
Coz this is our first time trying to put a performance together.
Let's pray... for the sake of QB.
Wakakakakaka. Okay, kidding.

\ Film ig

What? Yah, okay. If time permits.

\ Racial Harmony Day

We'll probably have shifts for this but I don't care!!!
I'm gonna stay there for all 24 hours.
Nyearhs nyearhs nyearhs.
Just sit and stone.
Tho I'm not sure what we'll be doing.
Hahahahaha.

Hmm... been playing loads of Crazy Taxi these days.
Watch out ong schlong billy bong!
Lololololol.
Just kidding. I know I can't win you.
I'm not even gonna mention nora coz she's way out of my league.
A step at a time, Natz.

Here're some stupid random pick-up lines.
Wakakakakakakakaka.

. Want to come see my HARD DRIVE? I promise it isn't 3.5 inches and it ain't floppy
. Tickle your pussy with a feather? (What?) I said, "Particularly nice weather."
. I can see you. [Uh, yeah.] Great! Then how about tomorrow.
. Can I borrow 70 cents? (No) Then how about 69. I'm sure you can offer 69.
. I'll give you a nickel if you tickle my pickle.

Okay, I gotta waffle now.
Eyes are half-closed.
ZzzzzZZZzzzzZZZzzz.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Camel with humps?

I know what camel toe is you shitinmyarseholes!
I did my research, and I'll display it nicely for you.

Definitions of camel toe:

` When her pants are so tight you can read her lips!
` When a chick crams herself into a pair of jeans and the crotch area has to displace the fat of her mound and the front of her pussy ends up looking like the actual toe of a camel.

Like when someone says:

"My four year old turned around really fast and ran into this chick's camel toe, when he turned back around he had a hoof print on his forehead"

"Is your crotch hungry girl? 'cause it's eating your pants."

Or simply put, it's just a pussy wedgie.

And I've got pictures to illustrate. Hmph.

Meet Mr Camel Toe. XD

See the similarity?

I rest my case.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

And so it was.

Think I feel a little refreshed after watching Project Joy.
Which was majorly awesome if you shenanigans dunno!
Kudos to Shannon and co. for the attractive play.

One of the best was Kebayarobics.
Where makciks in kebaya were doing aerobics.
Wakakakakakakaka.
So it was like watching women in tudung excercising to techno.
They should open their own night club.
Tho' instead of serving alcohol, they'd have to serve bandung or some other Makcik brewed drink.

Shitake, there's still loads to do.
Script and poster for Zither performance...
Finish reading Luke's book...
DMA...

Hmm, my bro actually fell asleep watching Mirror Mask.
Tsk. Accountants.
They're 7 letters away from truly appreciating art.

"Men love small ego because it makes their big ego even bigger!"
Chang errrrrr.

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Dreeeam. dream. dream. dream...

To be honest it's been an awfully long time since I properly sat down to read a book.
The last book I read was probably Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix.
But yea, anyway Luke brought a book to school last week called The Alchemist.

It follows the journey of a young shepherd boy who soughts his dreams of travelling and finding beauty in almost everything he sees.

A few years back, I got sick of the word 'dream'.
It was so mundane 'coz everyone was talking about it.
"Follow your dreams"... "Dreams can come true"... etc.

Back then, dreams were something that was quite non-existent for me.
I lived purely on realism.
Coz I knew my dreams wouldn't come true.
And I got sick of it when someone got into the dream talk.
"... tell me something I don't know."

But in recent years, I found myself dreaming alot.
About every aspect of life.
I started to have faith in this non-existent force.
And how badly I wanted them to be reality.

I still do fantasise alot.
I think we all do.
It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Mushed-mellow

I told him last night.
No strings attached?
I dunno.
But I destroyed him.
I'm not that sort of person.
I don't destroy people.
But the moment I do, they'll hate me forever.

I'm so unready for relationships.
That's why I say infatuation is the best.
You get to enjoy every minute of it and there's almost no room for fugly, unhappy pouts.
I never thought myself to be in such a position.
I thought this kinda thing only happened to stupid couples, only to realise I'm one of them.

Even when I told him, I felt numb all over.
I couldn't feel the pain he was trying to stab at me.
But I think he did.
My head feels like it's about to explode at any moment.
Everything feels so confined inside, it just wants to break free.

I just felt like shooting myself.
I felt like such a witch.
I didn't even recognise myself.
I'm not that sort of fugging person!
Maybe that's how it ends.
Me getting shot.
I used to dream of getting shot alot.
But in one of my dreams, I came back to life after getting shot.
Which means I still dunno what it means.
Hopefully it means there's hope.

I was wondering.
What if one day I went to sleep.
And never woke up.
Where would I end up?
I'd like to try.

Maybe hell, for everyone I've crushed and destroyed.
Maybe Munchie Land, where I can be with other mellows.
Or maybe I'll just come back as a cat with 8 more lives.

But I still haven't experienced the wonderful things in life.
I want to have my first taste of freedom.
I want to wake up everyday with a smile.
I want to enjoy every single bloody minute of my life.
And of course, experience what's been claimed of the existence of true, pure, unadulterated love.

Realistic? I hope so, but I'm sceptical.

Mushmellow

i got loads to say, but i'm feeling very sleepy now.
to be continuedDdDdDd.

eeeethemole